Requests From Someone Once Hurt
Please don't say you love me If you are conflicted about it inside. Please don't make me believe those words. Just because you'd rather not see me cry. Please don't promise me that we have forever. When in your soul you know its not the truth. Please don't make me out to be just your fool. Please I beg of you because that too is abuse. Please don't kiss my lips so sweetly dear. If at dawn I'll awake in our bed all alone. Please don't tiptoe in silence while I sleep. If you're done with our love, then let it be known. Please don't say you love me darling. If your soul's fighting with your heart. Please don't promise thousands of memories. If our love's ending before it really starts. Please don't pull me into your arms so close. If you only plan to set all my demons free. Don't look into my eyes with such longing. If at the end of your life, you can't see you and me. Please don't say the words I love you. If the truth is that with me; it doesn't feel right. Please, just give it to me as straight as you can Then by the time morning comes, I'll be out of sight. Please don't promise me forever if it's not real. Don't get on one knee asking for my hand. Just be honest not only with me but yourself. If you just aren't into this; tell me, I'll understand All I ask of you is a return of the respect I give to you Don't be afraid to tell me what's within your heart and mind. Please don't lie just to gain what you currently desire. Because I've been let down before so known how to recognize the signs. But if the words of love you speak are really true. By all means in the Earth allow them to roll right off your tongue. Say them loudly or whisper them gently either way is fine by my heart. Don't be afraid for the world to know our love has officially begun. If your feelings for me are real, then kiss me as you never have another. Don't hesitate to wrap me in your arms and whisper sweet nothings to me. From once just youthful friends now turned into eternal lovers. Sept. 4, 2020
As I Let Go Of Love
We met in a clearing, so full of love and happiness. Now alone in a darkened room is where I grieve
I had thought for certain you and I'd last forever
Never woulda thought I'd be the one my heart deceived.
Surrounded by ripped up pictures spread upon the floor
A hopeless attempt to forget some of the memories
Knowing good and well that the soul could never forget
Also knowing until I can slow the rest of pain, you'll haunt my dreams.
I find that all the same questions continue to echo
Like, how could this be and why is it I wasn't enough
Why is this pain so deep when it was over long ago
And will there ever come a time ever again my heart'll let my soul be touched?
We met almost 41years ago and were so full of love and joy
So how did it fall apart, or was it an illusion just an evil trick
Forever seemed so real back then and I only pictured it with you
But when I remember the pain that was caused I get deathly sick.
Now I welcome the rain as dark clouds quickly gather
I pray that it floods and washes all memory of us far away
So that maybe both heart and soul can someday heal
And with it gain a chance for happiness before I reach the grave.
I never would have imagined someone I loved could bring such pain
And destroy the parts of me they swore to always protect
But I can say that it was truly a revolutionary eye opener
Teaching me I deserved so much better, a lesson I'll never forget.
I guess I should have caught on in the beginning
But I guess along with being blind, it seems love also isn't very smart
It keeps you holding on tightly; always hoping its real
And even when its clear its hopeless, we still search within the dark.
Always holding on to the faith that things will somehow change
Hoping and praying the one you love will grow to love you too
And a broken heart takes some time to heal after its over
Often making one such as myself feel as if nothing will stop the gloom.
We met in the courtyard when we were young and full of life
Now in the graveyard all alone amongst the headstones I say goodbye
I close my eyes then open them and stare out in
And I promise, myself it will get better just as I begin to cry.
I'm thinking back to when things seemed so beautiful
When there seemed as if there was no dark clouds in the night sky
I'm remembering laying outside on a blanket under the stars
Before another moment passes, I realize I've begun to cry.
I'm thinking back to the days with nothing but sunshine
Days and nights without a moment looking as if it would rain
I wish we could return to that place right this very instant
The silence is so loud that I'm slowly going insane.
I can still see our beginning as if it was only yesterday
Almost as if we're no more than little kids once again
Yet sadly, I can also clearly see the ending of all that we were
I guess as much as we deny it, our love was just a tragic sin.
I'm keeping it as real as it could have ever truly have been kept
I can't come any other way than honest and straight from my heart
I'm trying to make sure there's never no doubt in your head
As hard as I fight to keep it together, I seem to keep falling apart.
I'm reminiscing on forever ago when I first fell for you
Staying in the shadows in silence afraid to let my feelings show
Watching the years pass by, mouth shut never giving a clue or hint
Yet always secretly praying that somehow you would just know.
Thinking back over the days and years you didn't even know I exist
Always thinking to myself how wonderful if only I could make you see
Making each day and night worth every chance we ever lost
When together it's obvious somehow you and I set one another free.
Thinking back to the start darling, before our time even started
Then when the chance arrived it was simply just sink or swim
We always seemed to march to the beat of our own drum
Only cared for each other, never gave a second thought to the likes of them.
I'm thinking back to a lifetime you probably don't even have a clue about
A time that your memory banks just won't allow such memories to occur
But I swear I know there's no second-guessing that it's always been you
A nervous giggle and a tear is all I can muster for courage to say that I'm sure.
I have such clear thoughts about what we used to be that's so long past us now
I hold back tears thinking we almost let go of our second chance
Both of us have to let go of our foolish and damn stubborn pride
If we can't learn to bend for this love it becomes a victim of circumstance.
I'm thinking back to lonely days lived that way because of our fears
Both scared to open our mouths and say that we should just give us a try
So foolish, because by the time we took that chance the damage was already great
Causing us to not put forth much effort which almost caused a goodbye.
Thinking back it's hard believing that someone young could feel so very strong
Hard to believe possible, harder to believe that it wouldn't tragic
But your soul and mine speak and our hearts often beat fully tune
Telling me it's meant to be, love that's so perfect, it's even better to me than magic.
June 21, 2020
Can You Tell Me?
Tell me anyone just had this is supposed to go
Tell me how I make my heart see the truth
When for so long now it's been in his hands
I shed a lonely tear reminiscing on our youth.
Tell me how to just walk away and not look back
Tell me how do I let the memories just fade
It meant the world to me to make each and every one
Now every moment without him here, they continue to replay.
Each morning when I wake all alone it's so hard for me
I dislike the dark of night, but I fear the dawn
For inside my dreams we are snuggled up close
There's no sorrow there, together is where we truly belong.
Tell me how I'm supposed to tell him goodbye now
After so many years only knowing how to love one soul
How can I stop these tears that fall from my eyes with such ease
How do I warm the insides of my heart from being so cold?
Tell me anyone how to face the dark days that lie ahead
Tell me how to scare these demons that haunt my world
It's like I'm attending the funeral of a perfect love
It's like watching a movie on repeat as we unfurl.
Tell me how do we begin working past all the hurt that's present
Tell me anyone, there's a chance to again make things right
It's too much of a burden to carry knowing it's over forever
When for more years than I'm able to count, he's been my light.
Tell me anyone at all that there was a time he really could have loved me
Tell me anyone please, that's some point in this life it was real
Let me have some kind of reassurance I wasn't just a total fool
Tell me that I was awake and not just dreaming about all my heart feels.
June 20, 2021
If only wishes can come true,
I have one or two or maybe a few,
And they're all about you,
Tell me what I should now do.
If only dreams can be reality,
Then theres a chance for us to be,
And I'll give myself fully to thee,
All in hopes you'll answer my souls plea.
If only wishes can come true
I know id still wish for only you
To be right by my side forever
Making a promise to leave each other never.
June 27, 2020
The Heart Has Lied
Trust me, the love still remains
Yet for the time being, it's weak at the best
Trust me, it's all still there just boxed up
With some time, I can handle the rest.
Trust me, this road may get uneven at times
We may even encounter a landslide or two along the way
Trust me, I know what it is to stumble
I know how it feels to face dark and stormy days.
Trust me, though it hurts now it will someday end
You'll become numb to the pain you now have inside
Trust me, the echoes from the lies will just suddenly stop
Then from that moment, no more tears shall you cry.
Trust me, time does take care of everything one faces in life
It does eventually get easier, all the things we go through
Trust me, the sun has to return at some point in time
Until that moment, there isn't really much you can do.
Trust me, I've been through it all before
There comes a time that it's all different than it first seems
Trust me, love when given the time that's required
Will eventually silence not only some, but all of your internal screams.
Trust me, when it ends there won't be any surprise at all
Your heart will already be partially healed
Trust me, I know that it will hurt you like hell when it comes
Mainly because you just can't flip the switch on how you feel.
Trust me, said the heart to the little girl bringing chocolates
This will be a good start said the heart to the boy with roses
Trust me, said the heart to the couple pouring out their souls
But the heart lied, it's truth only comes in the smallest doses.
April 9, 2020
The King & I
To love you has become second nature
To feel your heartbeat has become my desire
To feel your lips gently upon my own
Each time it sets my soul afire.
To look into your eyes each morning
To know that with my King I'm finally home
To feel your soul join with mine once again
For real love to be genuinely and truly shown
To feel the hand of the one with whom mine fits so perfect
To feel skin on skin as while we dream our bodies dance
Somehow it gets us to the point of no return
It's got me thinking the Fates felt we deserved a chance.
To know that at any given point of any future days
We may be talking about good memories long past
When we start to reminise on how it feels to love this way
We'll laugh longingly thinking time's moving too fast.
To feel like royalty just for a moment however brief
To feel as if the entire world awaits the moment you arrive
To know the moment may be fleeting so you grasp it firmly
Pray that the previous night's tears are the last you ever cry.
To know that time has prepared its trials made for you
Also knowing the knowledge is there, just under lock and key
So much difference and indesicion hold us back from truth
I'm hoping I find the real truth of how you feel for me.
We're on a swirling tunnel ride going faster than ever before
Holding on for dearest life as we draw closer to the dark
My head's thought process jumbled from the now calming spin
Realizing our love is the kind that leaves a forever mark.
I have dreamt you into the real world it appears to me
And I'm enchanted by the curiosity of the power I must possess
Is it possible that my energy is what has drawn you to me
And I'm sure you must think that I'm a total destructive mess.
I have the deepest ties to you that anyone could
And I hold in sorrowful words as I watch you walk the other way
I'm ready to experience the truth of your full undivided love's fire
I'll allow you to burn me to the ground for it's with fire I play.
To my deepest core I can feel the unrelenting heat of you
I embrace it happily, I look forward to the slow steady burn
This is the point in the story I start to really surrender my whole self
To truly please thy King, is a lesson I must learn.
Given another chance for the continuence of a former legacy
Only this time there can be no failure between the souls
I must just make sure the rightful King has the Queen by his side
So that neither of us is made to walk between the realms all alone.
The last journey I was forced to share. what belonged to me
So the days and nights grew cold with time's passing
And then before I was ready to let you go I got used to you not there
I could've begged on my knees but there wasnt a point in asking.
I couldnt give you the things needed when it began back then
I was promised to you when I was simply a child who didnt understand
A young widow's girl as a payment for a tyrants unpaid debts
Just an unknowing, scared chiId,sent off with a older man.
To love thee has become a second part of nature for me
To feel the heat from the blood racing throughout your veins
To feel that forced kiss that you made me to recieve
Made me realize that some of the best pleasure comes from pain.
To love thee has been just what my wandering soul needed
To feel the touch of your lips on mine, your hand in my hand
I knew the first moment the whole thing really started
And when I surrendered to you the screams were heard across the land.
April 9, 2020
And The Demons Followed Her
She can feel them following her tonight
They know not she knows they're there
But she accepted that which is reality early on
So if they wish to subdue her, she's well prepared.
She no longer feels the sun's warmth on her face
She no longer shivers in the coolness of the dark night
She accepts that there's no more deep connection here
She's embracing the darkness, she can't find the light.
Right now she would be okay with an overabundance of caring
She'd trade being smothered with hugs and kisses just to be sure
But they are on different worldly levels than they were the first time
Now, she feels more like he'd rather her just go out the door.
She can surely say that she's no stranger to these moments
They've over time become nightmares haunting her mind
They may never stop now, she's already lived over half her life
She just wish she could do a magic spell, turn the hands of time.
She can sense that the wind blows a different direction now
And that the one she's always loved is no longer feeling the same
It's becoming a hard thing to make her heart forget
When there was a time his only called out her name.
The love between them became the topic of a crime
A crime once full of twists, turns, and unbridled passion
That was before she knew he could be so hateful like here and now
She would have never in years seen it coming, its not his fashion.
But it seems he has called her unto him and his kingdom
Just to make her accept the bitterness he leaves upon her tongue
She was willing to do most anything to please his desired will
But it seems he doesn't want this, it's all just for fun.
She feels their presence close to her as she walks the streets tonight
She's willing to accept whatever's next, for, she's over this torture
But she swore to remain and take care of him the rest of life
He's too unpredictable, like the waves stealing the shore.
And the demons, well they followed her everywhere tonight
She hoped she'd lose them but they caught her every turn
She tried to run but it proved to be fruitless as well
So to love him she has to sit back and let her heart burn.
April 9, 2020
Millions of thoughts running through my head
Things that could be done or secret places to go alone
Things we could do to feel differently for one another
Things to think of and smile about at home.
Dreams that have filled the night many many moons prior
I want to bring into the light to make you smile
Maybe a chance to bring us back full circle again
Bring back what we feel but we lie about and stay in denial.
The bliss once made behind huge closed doors is made again
Maybe the kiss will help rekindle some of what seems lost
I wonder if you'll listen and act on my desires
Or if I will be forced to lose my heart and soul as the cost?
There are things I always only wanted to share with the one
There are ways I wanna be touched only you can do
And then they won't seem like just empty fantasies
They would then become closer to dreams come true.
April 9, 2020
If You Ask
If you were to ask what I dream of my love
Oh what incredible stories my mind could tell
All about magical things or what some call fairy tales
The details I could share could make me seem unwell.
I dream of ruling the people of ancient kingdoms
Of sitting beside my King upon our matching thrones
I dream of training the deadliest fire breathing dragons
High above the kingdom inside the caves they call home.
If you were to ask me what it is I wish for my sweet
It would be for things to go back to the way they once were
To retirn to,a previous lifetime, long since past us now
And hand in hand you and I danced in the rain upon the shore.
But I feel it must be impossible to return to that point
So much has taken place since we shared that moment in time
Yet I'm sure fate has reasons for putting us face-to-face again
Not sure about the meaning but that's definitely some kind of sign.
If you were to catch a glimpse of a tear rolling down my face
Don't try to wipe or kiss it away as it rolls from my eyes to my cheek
Let it flow in the way the fates have had it planned out for me to do
Don't hold it against my soul if looking at you I'm unable to speak.
If you were to ask what I plan to accomplish here my darling
I must first know if you ever still have dreams of me
Or if just like our love, it was taken with the start of this life
I hope not because anymore, it's only in the love we share that I believe.
April 2, 2020
A Picture Just For You
I wish to paint you a picture
That's drawn from my world
This paper is my canvas
The brushstrokes are my words.
I wish only for your happiness
For you to have sweet dreams at night
For life to be all you imagined
And to give you a love that's out of sight!
I have so little left of myself to give
The past has made me weary and weak
But fear not if I sit in silence
Sometimes looking at you it's hard to speak.
I sometimes think if I say too much
That you'll get tired and walk away
So I'm trying to watch how much I tell you
Because more than anything, I want you to stay.
I wish to paint you a beautiful picture
Drawn from the center of my world
For that's where you are in my life
I always wanted to be your girl.
We were given this great blessing
The opportunity to finally be together
But the ball's in our court now
And it's our job to Make It Last Forever.
So let's lay down in our bed tonight
Soul to soul, Heart to Heart, face to face
Feeling energy as we Two Become One
And let any doubts we have be erased.
To spend my life with you is my goal
To love you and hold you for all our days
Keep your heart beating closely to mine
May all we've created never, ever fade.
I'm trying to paint you a picture
After all this, is it any more clear
Can you tell we're something beautiful
Does it give you a twinge of fear?
Are you like me my sweetest love
And your only fear is getting hurt?
Tell me what to do so you know for sure
That with me you won't get burnt.
I hope these words reach you inside
I pray that this painting is enough
For my love, my words are all I have
Really, I'm weak but I play as if I'm tough.
Truthfully, I need your protection
Sometimes things aren't as they seem
This is my canvas, brushstrokes the words
And loving with you is better than a dream.
This is a complicated painting
Drawn from the center of my world
This poem is my finished canvas
I'll always want to be your only girl.
April 14, 2018
I am trying to wrap my heart around
How it is the one you loved can hurt you so bad
I wonder how so many years can be invested
Just to ultimately be left in the darkness so sad.
I'm trying to convince my soul that it wasn't meant to go that way
And that somewhere along the way your heart was touched
That the bad along with the good memories were all part of a plan
That even if misunderstood there was reasons I loved you so much.
I just wonder if my tears falling affect your heart as yours do mine
For the last thing I ever would wish for you is love to fade away
But I often wonder just what went so wrong before I got to you
That had you so convinced that no love could be true and stay.
I only wished to change your thought on the way you viewed love
To show you that with a little faith you may find that one who'd always care
But maybe it's my fault, and I unknowingly pushed you from me
Yet, till my final days, in my dreams you will always be there.
Yours will be the face that continues to haunt my nights and days
You will be the reason that at the worst moment tears will fill my eyes
A piece of my soul will forever call out looking for that lost love
You will be the one my spirit searches for when I die.
I know you convinced yourself that I have never loved you
I know not the reasons, I would guess you were afraid of the fall
But I would have been right there to catch you and hold you
Because like I tried telling you, you were my first true love after all.
May 28, 2020
My heart shattered, the pieces scattered up on the floor
And never before this moment have I felt so broken
How can I be like this, you had no more use for me
Yet somehow, you still hold my heart as your eternal token?
I feel that I'm just a broken toy, tossed away over in the corner
Thrown aside and forgotten for something that is shiny and new
I'm hurting but you do not understand that you could fix it
In your hands lies all the power
Your heart and soul contain the glue.
A chance untaken leaves loving words lost in translation
If you just give a little love the toy could be pieced back together
If you'd only take a moment, look and pick the toy up once more
If using a little patience to mend it you'll see that the broken toy is better.
Yes, just go quickly to the dark corner in which the broken toy lies
Pick it up gently, this broken toy wishes to be retrieved
With just a little working and some true compassion
You may give back some life, the broken toy may once again breathe.
Hidden spaces you'll see can find, safely tuck your toy away
So you can prevent the chance of any more harm being done
Just a single moment of caring and true tenderness
The moment you became the toys repairs, I knew that you were the one.
I was living with hope, for this broken toys wish was granted
Just don't stare for too long or its brightness will leave you blinded
There's light illuminating from within the soul of this once broken toy
Did you so gently retrieve your fixed, proving to this toy that love isn't always one sided.
This broken toy you have made almost like brand new
You can only see faint lines from it being broken into pieces
Does broken toys no longer broken at all, thanks to your hands
And now this meant to toy will remain yours throughout all the seasons.
September 19, 2018
I dream of all the future may hold in store
Happiness or sorrow, which will become my friend
I awake sometimes feeling so empty inside
But noone wants to hear when I say I feel the end.
I dream of wonderous days that have long gone past
When a confined princess was waiting to be saved by a prince
But I awake to the reality that those days are no more
And that to dream of such things just doesnt make sense.
I dream of the present time I am living within
Wondering if those around can sense the tears Ive shed
I awake to tear soaked pillows as the sun breaks
Now with millions of questions running through my head.
I dream of demons as well as the angels they fight
I shed another solemn tear for the one I want to protect
I awake with the wonder of if the night took them away
Even if it has, they're someone best not to forget.
I dream of a place where forever does truly and really exist
Where love is real and lovers together prove thier true worth
I awake to the worlds hate as I change through channels
And sadly start thinking we were doomed before our births.
I dream of all the future holds in store for myself and my love
Dream of a marriage, couple kids and a house on a hill
I awake to my lovers arms wrapped completely around me
And think to myself I may get lucky and have that still.
April 9, 2020
The Last Poem My Soul Has For You
Today is the day i start back the way it once was
Holding all my feelings for you inside away from the world
Today is the day i gather the pieces and shed my tears out of sight
Just thankful that for a moment the fates let me be your girl.
Today I say the last words you'll ever hear me say about my love for you
I know that you won't listen anyhow because you don't care how I feel
But maybe others will learn something from the tragedy that became us
And though we've ended badly I can swear that my love was real.
This is the last time you will read any sincere words I have
It doesnt matter because I don't feel any have ever touched your heart
I tried to bring all my feelings for you to the surface, the light
But I guess it meant more to you when it was still in the dark.
This is it, this is the last poem that my soul has for you
Or to be correct, the last one that you will ever physically see
You took with you the biggest part of what I had to give
Now I wish that having you would've just stayed a dream.
Today I open my hand that for so long reached for yours
Today I walk away from everyone because the silence is too loud
This I must make my soul's last poem written to you my love
I'm on my way to get fully lost, never again to be found.
I just hope that when you are old and grey, thinking back in time
I hope at least one beautiful memory of us creeps right in
Even if it's only the one thats all that really matters
As for me, the memories of you, for me will never end.
May 30, 2020
Though our time has come to an end, you'll forever remain in my heart, mind and soul as the dream I had come true. The ending may be different than I envisioned but I'm grateful for the time I got to spend with you. Love you always....you know who you are
When The Battle Ends
So, there comes a time when your soul has faced enough
When the battle between it and your heart has to end
A time when you realize that you'd be better trying to move on
Because even though your feelings were real, theirs was just pretend.
You can spend years caring for someone in the background
Loving them with every part of you without them knowing
Just to get what you think may be your wishes all come true
Then spend many months or even years just to find yours was the only love growing.
They say it's better to lose the smallest of battles and not fight the war
At least then you can say you're still here to fight another day
But that doesn't mean the heartache you feel will be lessened
But it often assures that the next time you will do it another way.
You learn things about yourself you may find shocking
Things that without fighting the battle you'd have never known
But all that you learn just makes you safer for the next fight
And when it comes to loving someone, you'll know if you're together or alone.
So be grateful that you were brave enough to make it through
Hold dear to you any memories and keep lessons learned in mind
You may just find that the road to the next one is easier
Or you may discover there's no more battles at all because real love is divine.
May 16, 2020
Can't Walk Away
My first real and true love
The Man whose love I treasure
This time apart hasnt been easy
But I swear I love you beyond all measure.
You're still my first thought each morning
My last thought as I drift off to sleep
As long as there remains breath in me
My heart and soul are yours to keep.
Things were so perfect once upon a time
Then it all seemed to fall quickly apart
I wish we could go back and begin again
But I don't know where to even start.
Things feel so much different now
Though my love still burns just as strong
I'd give anything to look in your eyes
To feel as if nothing could ever go wrong.
My first full taste of unconditional love
The Man I wished for upon the night stars
Now we must know, we are both to blame
We wasted a blessing that was solely ours.
We started out with a love just so perfect
But all we've been through since is a shame
Didn't know we'd wind up alone not together
In my dreams I often scream your name.
Its so sad that we have to be so far apart
But in my heart, you're forever by my side
My soul will never love another I swear
You're the one i wanted for all my life.
I don't know how to ease the pain caused
We are both damaged in need of repair
After giving so much of who we really are
Life with any other just wouldn't be truly fair.
Acting as if we are okay even if we aren't
Hiding emotions, smiling through the hurt
Acting fine as we try to find a way to heal
Never letting go until we are buried in dirt.
We need to fix what has been broken
For the memories will haunt us, never gone
We can't give ourselves fully to another
Missing each other from dusk till dawn.
The daylight will not be kind to our hearts
The dark brings tears to our wounded souls
The taste of heaven and hell mixed is bitter
When you have a winning hand, never fold.
So I can't let you or I walk away from love
When truly, you are all my heart desires
I want the both of us to be happy together
Just for you, my soul has an eternal fire.
I love you sweetheart more than anything
Noone's ever touched me the way you have
And I know that life without you isn't right
Because all i do is worry and remain sad.
So lets figure out how to get things back
Let's bring back the people we were before
So life is happy and happiness never fades
So we never face love walking out the door.
JANUARY 28, 2020
With just a bit of faith and a small bit of belief
You'd be surprised by the true power of we two
All that it requires is the power of 1 of you and one of me added up
But it's more complicated than the simple math that I've just performed for you.
With a full embracing of the level possibly attained
When we two accept it, we cause the unexplainable to come forth
Imaginations tend to run wild and we two must stop ourselves
Before the powers of we two expands and doubles, overvaluing our worth.
For the love between we two carries through all the realms
Leaving some forever changed, while others not quite so much
Some have no faith at all and others thier belief is shaky at best
But I feel that the power of we two will indeed the lost ones touch.
The power of we two is much stronger together than when alone
We've been blessed with unseen gifts and the power of we two can change it all
Only, effort must be shown by we two, for true love to be seen by the whole world
Such as a simple gesture like catching our souls mate if they ever start to fall.
Now, it took some convincing for you to notice my subtle powers
Such as truly casting spells by using only my eyes and my mind
Now, I search for your powers locked tight within your spirits chambers
So you and I may continue as we two, once we leave from this place and run out of time.
I can be positively correct in thinking we two have been here before
I feel it, we had two lifetimes already and this will be our final chance
I've no idea how we two failed at this poetic rhythm that we call love
So don't ask for I know not, if we two were guilty of dark sin or simply victims of pure circumstance.
But with just a little faith and belief in that which is usually unattained
You may be shocked and begin to crave that power unreal that is made by we two
Yet if ever divided, we two would be nothing more than two lonely ones
And apart our power would be absent and we'd know not what in life to really do.
For the important thing to know is that a one alone will never have nothing
It must find a partner to carry on with to build their own legacy
Before loneliness turns them bitter with no one any longer there
So I wish on the Stars each night there is never us, so just promise you'll stay we two always with me.
May 5, 2019
Wonder Of It All
There is no where that I could run to
Simply put, there's no place I can hide
There's a truly serious chemistry here
Been that way for years between you and I.
Now all the cards have been swiftly dealt
It would appear one of us holds a royalflush
Neither knowing if the other ia trying tobluff the house
For the roads we've both traveled have beenquite rough.
So, with fear of losing all the chips I'vegathered
I take a gambler's chance at luck and go allin
I show my pair of Queens that I've soproudly held tight
As you lay out the Ace and King ofdiamonds taking the win.
For the Royal flush you made with suchlittle effort
Beats my pair of Queens held even addingthe one on the table
But you tell me that you will gladly sharethe winning money pot
If only I can promise you a heart that to lovetrue is really able.
So I smile sweetly at you as the dealer onceagain begins to shuffle
Only this time we play against two others and we are playing for keeps
The winners of this hand will recieve a lifefull of joy and love
This is the last thing I see before I awakefrom my sleep.
As my eyes slowly begin to open after mynights slumber
It's your mesmorizing eyes that are lookingdirectly back at me
I smile and slide closer, curling into yourloving embrace
And fall softly back to dreamland within thearms where I was always meant to be.
December 28, 2019
Farewell To The Fool
I've spent countless nights beside youwith my heart dying
No telling the number of tears shedso softly they never made a sound
As i lay next to you feeling like youwere a millions miles away from here
Giving you all my love yet feeling like you wished me not to be around.
I can still remember the twinkle inyour eyes the first time i was in your arms
It felt like this was the place that weboth had always needed to be
But things have become so dark evenafter i've given so much love to you
I say nothing, but its like all thosewe're close to, have known the joke's on me.
Maybe the way I portray things isn'tthe way reality is at all
Sometimes I know that I read deeperinto things than I probably should
But to understand it fully you mustknow the way I feel for you deep inside
And know its the truth that I'd let allthe world know if i really could.
You are the deepest part of me andaffect everything within my life
Somehow when all is said and done Ialways consider how you'd feel
And then i think about how each daymy love continues to grow
It seems that when it comes to usyour haunting demons twist up what's real.
I worry that our love is fast
approaching the point of no return
It seems that you're slippin from mebut i cant take my heart or soul back
I was being honest the day i told youthat they were always yours to keep
That was so if you were ever lost fromme, to my heart you'd have a map.
On second thought, maybe you're justa lesson that i was meant to learn
The heavens sent you so that I wouldsee that I deserved so much more
So that next time I'd be careful and notseek, but let love find
And once it presented itself to me, I'dbe open to all that True Love has in store.
So, in this moment, though hurting,there's something i feel I must say
I wish for you to find that which Iwasnt, yet you seemed to always seek
I bid farewell to one I thought I couldnever let walk away
Now I start a new journey without you, I couldn't believe a word I heard u
There was so much more than a heartand soul, but a spirit involved
The most important, the spirit, for itwas and is who I really am
So I'll let u have the other two becauseI need them not
And I bid farewell always to a manwho wasnt truly a man.
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