Why is time moving so fast? What’s going on with so many things manifesting from the past, why does this life feel so dim, grim, and so goddamn, overcast? This rain it just won’t stop! clouds so big so much chaos flooding in… Feeling so trapped… there’s so much water in this boat… is this life even our own from the start? We grow, we learn, we live, we work , we pay, till our children do the same? A never ending cycle no real life to live I just gotta say… RJW

I want to do like so many things! My head is like a large bucket of fun that's been buried in the woods, I've got the map but it's upside-down and backwards, once I locate the bucket the fucking lid is stuck!!! I am pulling and pulling until suddenly POP!!! I fall on my ass, shit flies everywhere and I spend the next year of my life staring at this mess wondering where in the hell to even start.... RJW2022

I feel like I've just been split into two I've lost part of me and I've lost part of you, if I could have one wish or one dream come true all that I'd want is to be with you... right now I feel so lost and confused and left with nothing but these feelings I surely didn't chose.. But I've said it once and I'll say it again they may have took you from me now but they won't do it again! RJW 1992

I feel like something is wrong with me and you.. I have know idea what we are supposed to do… I've lost myself and so have you…. I know you see it, and I am sure that you feel it too… I hope it's not to late, when you awake to save me and you, because my dear I fear I can no longer be the glue.... RJW 2022

Don't allow the chaos of life to cloud your mind, what you need to remember is… It is only a ripple in time it can't last forever and it won't leave you blind… so enjoy the beauty and clear your mind! RJW 2018

It has become so much harder to see the good through all of your bad, this shit has just become so damn sad… Lost in this unresolved storm of past haunting trauma; why can't you see I am drowning trying to swim through this never ending drama... RJW

 I will never understand why I need to feel so much pain… All this constant erosion going on in my brain… It's like my head is exploding from dealing with all of their shame, sometimes I wonder who is really to blame? with all these thoughts trapped in my mind lost in the dark leaving me blind… Crushing my soul and deconstructing my mind… These answers I need, I fear I will never find, so here I sit forever losing my mind… RJW 2018

Not everyone's relationship starts out perfect and bright, some may have to endure an unbelievable fight; You may even have to travel through someone else's dark side in order to find their light... However take heed Tread lightly, move swiftly their dark side could damage your soul in this fight... never ever let someone else's dark side smother your light... RJW

My heads such a cluttered mess that my body can't even seem to rest… Sometimes I wonder is this all some fucked up kind of test… Some would say " OH my but you're so blessed!" "You still have so much" Even though my life is just a huge fucked up mess... Hard to find the bless in this God awful mess... RJW 2021

I feel your resentments, your frustration, yes your anger too… But I don't feel it with you like a partner is supposed to…  You throw it all at me like a house collapsing on my head! Everything that is bothering you crushes me dead… Everyday I feel the weight as it gets even harder to take, harder to breathe, I don't know how you live this way with all that rage? I am on my knees held hostage in your anger cage… RJW

I'm scared and afraid with so much I think I should say... So much dismay my nerves are so frayed…Would you be angry if I say I am not very thankful today? Would you be angry if I say I want more than a few text as daily interactions with the man that I love each day? would you be mad or sad if you knew how much my heart hurts today? maybe you just don't understand all my dismay? But my love no kiss goodnight? Has me up in my dreams looking for another who won't make me feel  that way...RJW