Losing Seguir historia

It's getting so much harder to barder between my heart and my mind.

My love for you may be losing some of it's light…

my light for you has always shined so bright…

Why do I feel so defeated, lost and alone?

I can see my love is losing this war,

over and over, and I just keep giving you more.

I should have known you would never let me have even a small win in this fight...

I don't even know what it's all for anymore..

so much has changed....

Maybe it's me, maybe its you..

does it really matter??

you don't even wanna talk to me at all anymore?….

You stomp all over my feelings, making me trip over my sadness, got me all caught up in this never ending madness...

i've tried everything to save us…

Nothing is working maybe I should just admit defeat;

Did I do this to you and to me?….

Have I spoiled you like a child then expected you to act like my mate….

Maybe it was already too late and this is just my horrific fate???

Got me all twisted so out of focus I can no longer see...

I don't even know if I should continue to wait for you to be the man I know you can be?

I fucking hate feeling as though you enjoy doing this to me…

Emotionally you evade me not worrying about our life…

You say I love you without much behind your eyes; please take off your fucking disguise before you lose the love of your life…

All I want is to feel like your wife...

not just you're cook, laundry maid, chauffeur, and sex doll, this is no real life…

These are my sad feelings thats all...

I can no longer live in this tornado of emotional control!

I won't continue to accept or allow your lies….

No more helping you believe in your own alibis…

I love you always; but I won't live like this forever…

Rjw2018