ella-mae-johnson Ella Mae Johnson

Liara Reese is beginning her freshman year of highschool, and she couldn’t be more unprepared. Struggling to win over an years-old crush, she questions things like love, happiness, and friendship. Read into this youthful diary of a teen girl just trying to make it through highschool. Will she and her first love ever be together? This is the first book in a four book series, Diary of a Broken Heart. Please enjoy!

#13 in Teen Fiction All public.

#unrequitedlove #brokenheart #deardiary #journaling
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First Day of School

Today was aweful.


Horrific - really, it was.

And it all stemmed from my stupid heart choosing someone all the way back in middle school. Someone I could never actually have.

His name is Zane. Zane Hudson. And I loved him.

Ok, he's a few years older than me - so what? He'll be gone in two years (he's a junior in highschool) - so what? My aunt and uncle were highschool sweethearts, so why can't that happen for me, too?

Well, let me at least start at the beginning.

I've always known Zane, really. We've always gone to the same school, shared a lot of the same extracuriculors, and recently, joined the same local youth group. He's everything to me.

It probably started around fifth grade. That was before I found my voice. I couldn't talk to him at all. I was the nerd kid, but I wasn't smart. I was always the odd girl out, and try as I may, I couldn't change my circumstances. And why would he notice me - why would he even care? I was just the girl in the back who had so much to say, but no way to say it. Why would he ever want me?

Around sixth grade, there was this girl, Ella, who came to town. Every summer, she would come and she would always play with the popular kids. She was as pretty as you could get - and Zane really liked her.

I don't think I knew what heartache was until then. I really didn't understand. When you bottle up that much longing - and then see someone else living your dream... that's when it really stings the most. In the end, though, she chose his cousin over him (Zane). She didn't know what she was missing.

A second chance - I really thought I had one. But no, he stayed far away from getting to attached to any girl... by beign "friends" with all of them. In the end, he was the only one who didn't get hurt.

Tenth grade (for him); (my eighth grade year). Isa Summers. He asked her to homecoming andprom. He liked her that much! That broke me all over again. She went out with him those two times, but never again.

She's a strong woman, and I admire her deeply for not needing a boy in her life. I wish I could be more like that.

But anyway, Zane's completely single right now! And so maybe, just maybe, he would see me, finally! We have a youth group even coming up Saturday - I'll keep you posted.

Oct. 16, 2023, 7:27 p.m. 5 Report Embed Follow story
To be continued... New chapter Every Wednesday.

Meet the author

Ella Mae Johnson HI, my name is Ella Mae, or E for short. I’m an author in my spare time, but normally a musician and student just trying to survive. I’m a violinist and have an appreciation for the arts, which you’ll probably see in several upcoming stories I’m hoping to write. If you like my stories, pls follow!!!

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Shaun M Waller Shaun M Waller
This is a good story and nicely written, very relatable. Well done! I will read some more of your other stories.
December 16, 2023, 00:25
Megan T Megan T
Its lovely so far. Honestly, I can really relate because I've been on such a bumpy road of love and its exactly like this.
October 17, 2023, 19:46

  • Ella Mae Johnson Ella Mae Johnson
    Thank you so much! My highschool experience was very similar too. Actually, quite a bit of this story is based off of my original highschool experience with some fiction mixed in. Glad you’re enjoying it so far, and hope you continue to! :) October 20, 2023, 14:13
Kiontre Miles Kiontre Miles
Lovely madam! ❤️
October 16, 2023, 19:31

  • Ella Mae Johnson Ella Mae Johnson
    Aw, thank you! And thanks so much for reading this story! I appreciate it very much 😊 October 20, 2023, 14:15