I make your name forbidden in the house because it makes him suffer. Dad pretends to be strong, he smiles and says that it’s just a matter of time, but I know he doesn’t believe in this. I watch him, I follow him, repeating everything because I know he needs help to continue believing, he can’t give up on you as everyone did. “She’ll understand” he says, “She’ll come back”, he hopes. And I smile, silent, because I don’t wanna lie to him, I don’t wanna show him that I already gave up on you, Sis.