I need to stop looking for you in every person around me. I’m feeling like an orphan, even knowing that I’m not. Your absence gave me a lack of something that I don’t know how to deal with and I keep trying to full it with every piece of love that I receive. I miss someone to be my safe point, to be my house, the lap where I can lie down and cry. And I blame you for it, I blame you for abandon your responsibility as I was nothing to you. I blame you because it is the only option you left me.